Wednesday, March 30, 2011

God's Grace * LOVING IT! *

I wonder how many people will delete this without reading it  because of the title. It is a shame but this message is very true. Hope you  are all as blessed as I was by this story.

There once was a man  named George Thomas, pastor in a small New England  town. One Easter Sunday morning he came to the Church carrying a  rusty, bent, old bird cage, and set it by the pulpit. Eyebrows were raised  and, as if in response, Pastor Thomas began to speak. . . ...

"I was  walking through town yesterday when I saw a young boy coming toward me  swinging this bird cage. On the bottom of the cage were three little wild  birds, shivering with cold and fright.

I stopped the lad and asked,  "What do you have there, son?"

"Just some old birds," came the  reply.

"What are you going to do with them?" I  asked.

"Take 'em home and have fun with 'em," he answered. "I'm  gonna tease 'em and pull out their feathers to make 'em fight. I'm gonna  have a real good time."

"But you'll get tired of those birds  sooner or later. What will you do then?"

"Oh, I got some cats," said  the little boy. "They like birds. I'll take 'em to them."

The pastor  was silent for a moment. "How much do you want for those birds,  son?"

"Huh?? !!! Why, you don't want them birds,  mister.

They're just plain old field birds. They don't sing. They  ain't even pretty!"

"How much?" the pastor asked  again.

The boy sized up the pastor as if he were crazy and said,  "$10?"

The pastor reached in his pocket and took out a ten dollar  bill. He placed it in the boy's hand. In a flash, the boy was gone. The  pastor picked up the cage and gently carried it to the end of the alley  where there was a tree and a grassy spot. Setting the cage down, he opened  the door, and by softly tapping the bars persuaded the birds out, setting  them free. Well, that explained the empty bird  cage on the pulpit, and  then the pastor began to tell this story:

One day Satan and Jesus  were having a conversation. Satan had just come from the Garden of  Eden, and he was gloating and boasting. "Yes, sir, I just caught a  world full of people down there. Set me a trap, used bait I knew they  couldn't resist. Got 'em all!"

"What are you going to do with  them?" Jesus asked.

Satan replied, "Oh, I'm gonna have fun! I'm gonna  teach them how to marry and divorce each other, how to hate and abuse each  other, how to drink and smoke and curse. I'm gonna teach them how to invent  guns and bombs and kill each other. I'm really gonna have fun!"

"And  what will you do when you are done with them?"

Jesus asked..  "Oh, I'll kill 'em," Satan glared proudly.

"How much do you want for  them?" Jesus asked.

"Oh, you don't want those people. They ain't no  good. Why, you'll take them and they'll just hate you. They'll spit on you,  curse you and kill you. You don't want those people!!"

"How much? He  asked again.

Satan looked at Jesus and sneered, "All your blood,  tears and your life."

Jesus said, "DONE!" Then He paid the  price.

The pastor picked up the cage and walked from the  pulpit.

I pray, for everyone who sends this on, whether to their  entire address book or just a few, that God will bless them in a special  way.

And for those that just deleted it......... and I KNOW there  will be....... ?


I  thank God everyday for my blessed life. I'm not rich, don't live in a  mansion and don't have the nicest of material things, but, I'm healthy, have  a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food on my table, a family that  loves me and lifelong friends to get me through and Heaven as my  home!   No Greater Love Than  THIS.......


what a beautiful example! Now my eyes are OPENED the real meaning of " PRICE " of the blood.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Daddy's Sick

Poor Daddy, he's been sick since Sat Nite. ML pretended to be a doctor, checking on him

I took over the laundry, and cleaned ML's drawer. So glad that ML helped me sort her clothes. Daddy asked me not to work too hard. It's too late! 

He threw up a couple times, and took a shower a couple times,too. I asked him to eat something, he refused. The stomach virus was working on his belly. He said he couldn't eat at all.

Finally, at night, I cooked him pancake. He ate a couple bites, and gave up. he said," I'm buying my own frying pan. The pancake is spicy.Once awhile,it's ok." HA HA HA HA HA HA.

I have to admit, all my frying pans had been used for cooking spicy food. I finished the rest, since I hadn't eaten any for dinner.

Today, Daddy didn't go to work. He stays at home.He's taking some rest. Hopefully he could go to work tomorrow.

Get well soon, Daddy. Love you!



Thursday, March 24, 2011

" Quote " Senjata Makan Tuan ( Orang Bodoh & Orang Pintar )

Requote : "Mengapa kejahatan tdk berkurang di dunia ini? Penyebabnya ternyata adalah: Krn orang baik yg bodoh. Orang baik digambarkan sbg pemaaf meskipun dijahati terus menerus. Akibatnya orang jahat jadi jahat terus. Mmmmhhhhh........begitukah???? "


Duh, yg nulis sendiri malah ngejahatin orang! Pendidikan tinggi,krj hebat,taat beragama, tapi kelakuan....????? BERTOBATLAH!!!! MALU!

Yg benar, " krn orang baik itu PEMAAF, bukan BODOH.Yang BODOH itu  org yg menulis,dan bertanya,sementara dia sendiri gak sadar kalo dia itu yg melakukan,tapi malah bertanya, muka badak. 

Tepuk dada,tanya selera, jangan nunjuk orang, sementara 4 jari ke diri sendiri. Mari instropeksi diri,sama instropeksi, jgn pongah krn jabatan,materi, kuasa.

Kita tinggal sebentar di dunia ini.Harta gak dibawa mati, harta tetap tinggal di dunia.Percuma!

Sekolah tinggi2, kok kerjanya malah ngejahatin orang. Pantesan aja kejahatan gak berkurang di dunia ini, krn orang PINTAR yg berubah jadi BODOH, yg OTAKNYA jadi ERROR dan menjadi JAHAT. Naif sekali hanya sampe di situ saja kemampuan otaknya dipergunakan.

* back to the quote*

Jadi, jangan bilang orang baik itu BODOH. Justru krn mereka punya KASIH, mrk MEMAAFKAN, MEMAAFKAN, MEMAAFKAN.

Jangan bilang orang baik itu BODOH, justru mereka itu PINTAR, krn mereka KASIHAN melihat org yg mengganggap dirinya PINTAR tapi JAHAT

Jangan bilang orang baik itu BODOH, justru mereka itu tidak mau MEMBALAS kejahatan. Krn apa bedanya mrk dengan yg melakukan kejahatan ?

Nah, skrg yg BODOH itu siapa ya ?????

May God forgive you and me.


Monday, March 21, 2011

Weird Dream * AGAIN!*

Ughhhh another " weird nightmare"!

I was in ML's bedroom, and saw from her window the neighbor's yard. There're some people over there talking late at night. It's was like doing transactions. I only peeped from the blind.

Then, I saw this one guy, smoking, looking at the window, and getting closer. I was afraid. I opened the blind ( ughhh ),and the window. He saw me and asked me what I was doing. I didn't say anything, but he put closer his cigarette and pushed on my right shoulder. Awww... it's burning!!!! He hurted me!

 Then, another scene, was " my husband " ( it's weird, my husband in this dream was my so called " father " from Lombok Island, where I used to live with him and his family ). 

I saw this " husband " had another " girl ". First, the girl was taken to our house and introduced as a worker. Then, it turned out they're getting closer. Till I asked what happened between them.

They admitted they had an affair, I was so furious! I asked the girl to leave the house. And my so called " husband" insisted she would stay with us. I threatened him to choose.He chose the girl. I told them to leave immediately, and I kept the kid.

Goshh... how hard it was to fight over the cheating. In my dream, I was really desperate to make it work, and it didn't.

May this weird thing only happened in the dream. I couldn't imagine in the reality.

May God protect our marriage, our lil family

Bet, if I told Ronnie about this dream, he would laugh at me. He would say," You always have weird dreams." LOL


Thursday, March 17, 2011

Bubur Ayam Sukabumi/Muara ( Sukabumi/Muara Chicken Porridge Style )

Oh how I love this food! I used to have this as bfast when I was in Bandung. Every morning! With rp.5.000/portion, it's not that bad.

Rice porridge with shredded chicken, chicken liver& gizzards ( extra fee ), sweet soy sauce,crackers and the hot sauce, makes it complete!

1 cup rice
Bay leave
Coconut milk ( 1/2 cup )
Bring it to boil

Seasoning :
Candlenut 1
Shallots 2
Garlic 1
Kaffir lime leave 2
Bay leave 2-3
Corriander , a dash

Stir fry the seasonings half cook, comes to good fragrance
Add the chicken broth from the chicken
Add to the rice ( boiled with water and coconut milk )
Stir around till it's fully becomes porridge. Add water or chicken broth if the consistency still not right.

Pour the porridge in a bowl
Add the shredded chicken, chicken gizzard and liver
Add the fried soy bean ( kacang kedele )
Sweet soy sauce
Crackers ( kerupuk )
Sambal ( hot sauce ). I use Sambal Bakso.


Mommy Not Like ML ?

She did it again!  I was ready to take her to bed, and touched her bottom. Ahhh.. she P*OP again. Duh!


I told ML, “ This is not good.You’re a big girl. You can do it by yourself.Or, if you need help, ask Mommy or Daddy.”


ML said “ sorry… sorry, Mommy. Sorry”. Ah….I said, “ No more ,ML. This is not the 1st time you do it. You need to learn. You’re a big girl.”


I told her I wouldn’t put on undies on her. Ha ha ha ha ha. She’s scared. She said,” Mommy, I’m sorry… I’m sorry.”


I cleaned her up, and put on a new undies. Then, I asked her to go to bed. She asked me to read her “ Purple Cupcakes.” I said,” No Purple Cupcakes tonite. Tomorrow,I’ll read. Let’s pray right now.”


We prayed, then ML asked me one more time to read. I said, “ We need to talk, ML.”

She was quiet. I told her, “ ML needs to stop doing it. It’s not good. You’re big enough.You can do it.”

ML responded,” I’m sorry.” I said,” Mommy hears that many times. It’s time to stop. Mommy likes Maggie. Look at Maggie.She’s a big girl. She can do it, ML can do it,too.”


Suddenly she says,” Mommy not like ML ?” She put a sad face. Oh my!!!!!!!!!! I didn’t mean to sound like that! LOL


 My answer,’ Mommy loves ML.Mommy likes ML.ML just needs to stop doing it in pants. Mommy’s here to help you.Daddy’s here to help you. You can do it. Promise Mommy you can do it.”


ML answered,” I promise.”


“ Now,” I said,” Where do you go “ pee pee “ ?

ML said, “ Potty.”

I said,”  Yes, where is it ?”

ML said,” Bathroom.”

I said : “ Good!” Now, where you go “ poo pee “ ?”

ML said, “ Training pants.”

HA HA HA HA HA HA HA. Oh my!!!!!!!!!!! How innocent she was! I tried to hold my laugh. HA HA HA HA HA. I tried!
I said,” No, ML. We go to bathroom.” Now, where we go to brush teeth ?”

ML said,” Bathroom.”

I said,” Now…where we go to “ mandi “ ?

She said,” BLUE BATHROOM!”

YES!!!!!!!! That’s it!


Then, I reminded her again. Where to go pee pee ? She answered “ bathroom”. Where to go “ poo pee “, she said “ TRAINING PANTS”. DUH!!!!!!!!!! LOL


I corrected her,” bathroom”. She got “ bathroom”.


Finally, I read her fave story “ Purple Cupcakes “ ( instead of Pinkalicious,story about PINK CUPCAKES, I changed into “ purple “. Cos ML LOVEEESSSSSSSSSSSS PURLE. )  ^____^


Oh how I love her! Out of her “ accidents’, I know I love her. I will help her to handle it.Hopefully she can do it.I know she can do it

Monday, March 14, 2011

Story About ML's " Pre Preschool "

There she was! Her 1st day going to Pre Preschool at College Hill Presbyterian Nursery, 3C's. She insisted to put on her " princess shoes " ( she LOVES them.Blame on neneknya yg suruh pilih ini model sepatu thn lalu ). LOL 

She put on her nice dress and we're a lil late! . As we arrived, I asked ML if she wanted me to stay outside with her. She said," Mommy, you go." Geeee..... She rushed into the play room, and I didn't have a chance to say goodbye!

The director said it's better for me to leave, otherwise ML wouldn't stay in the class, cos she saw me.  Nah...she's wrong!

So, I left and delivered business cards for my friend ( ordered from Ronnie's company ).By the time I was done, I rushed back to the nursery and picked up ML.

Got a note from her teacher about her " princess shoes". LOL. Teacher wanted ML put on gym shoes next time, in order to avoid any accidents during the play time. Yeah!

ML was proud showing me her " fingers and feet prints ". Love it! She didn't let me hold it.She said," I show you,Mommy." HA HA HA HA HA.

We stopped by at Mom's house. ML greeted Lucky at the backyard, gave him a kiss ( awwwww! ) and showed Lucky her drawing..She saw Tader in the kitchen and said," Tader, come here. I show you." HA HA HA HA HA HA.

Grandma came from the basement and ML said," Grandma..grandma.. I show you. My drawing. My fingers and feet." HA HA HA HA HA. My... how happy she was!

Then, we had some snacks there. We continued going to the library. I thought ML deserved some time to play game. So,she played a couple, and we left after 1.5 hours.

I took ML to Mc.D, we had nice lunch.Time to go home, it's already past 4 pm! Oh my!!! Long day!

Soon, Daddy came home and asked about our day. I told him," I'm worn out." HA HA HA HA HA HA. ML showed Daddy her drawing.She put it by the refrigerator.

What a lovely day! Can't wait to see ML have fun with her new friends again on Fridays

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

New Orleans BBQ Shrimp Style( Dry )

I was attempted to cook Southern meal. It looks interesting for me, so I tried. I did it. It turned out good. The smells of strong seasonings really takes me back to the South :D

I modify the recipe a lil bit, make it dry version.

1pound raw shrimp, heads and shells on, well rinsed and drained
1 tsp lightly salted butter
1 tsp premium beer ( I used Rum, or can be substitued with wine )
1/2 cup extra virgin olive oil
3 cloves garlic, minced
3 bay leaves
1/4 cup Worcestershire sauce
1 tablespoon creole seasoning (I prefer Tony Cachere’s)
1/2 teaspoon cayenne
12 dash fresh rosemary
1-2 dash fresh oregano
1/2 teaspoon crushed whole peppercorns
1 dash salt
1/2 tsp teaspoon ground black pepper
lemon juice, or sliced lemon
French Bread or plain rice for side dish

Preheat the oven to 350 degrees F.
Rinse the shrimp under cold running water and let drain.
Spread in 1 layer in a large roasting pan or baking dish.
Melt the butter in a large saucepan.
Add the remaining ingredients, except the shrimp and bread, and stir to mix well and bring to a simmer for 10 minutes.
Remove from the heat and pour over the shrimp.
Bake in the oven until the shrimp are pink and cooked through, 30 to 40 minutes, stirring occasionally to keep the shrimp from drying out.

Remove from the oven and pour into a large serving bowl, or individual bowls to be peeled and eaten at tableside, with hot French bread for dunking in the sauce.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Wonderful " Family Time " ^___^

Oh how I love " FAMILY TIME " !

Last nite, I was cooking " Bubur Ayam " aka Chicken Porridge for dinner. ML was playing Dora Game, Daddy came home minutes later.

Daddy asked me what to do after done cooking. I said," Nothing.Eat some of it. Why?"

He said," Ok.. I will give you some time here.It's 7.30pm right now.Take your time. By 8.15pm, go down to the basement."

I wonder why and what he wanted to do. I was curious and asked," What you wanna do ?" He said," We'll have FAMILY TIME. We'll watch movie, Despicable Me."

Aha!!!!!!! I had borrowed it for almost a week, and hadn't had a chance to watch.Finally, Daddy had spare time last nite and decided to watch it together. Yuhuuu!!!!!!!

So, I was rushing, finishing my meal and cleaned up the kitchen. I asked ML to come down with us. She said, " No, thank you. ML play Dora. " Oh well... it'll be me and Daddy then

Anyway, Daddy turned on the dvd player. So glad the tv in  the basement is big.Got it from his friend, for free, home theather :D . The sound is good,too!

We started watching this movie. Daddy couldn't stop LAUGHING from the very 1st time movie's on till the end!

The movie is really funny! He couldn't stand, kept laughing and laughing and said," oh my.. it's hillarious!!! Oh no! Oh no!!! Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha." I laughed,cos he laughed out loud!

Then, ML called us. She needed help. I went upstairs and helped her play Dora Game. I went downstairs and continued watching. Finally, ML joint us. She was curious what we're doing in the basement. 

Once she saw the movie, she said," Ahhh. ML want to watch!" So, she laid on me, meanwhile I laid on Daddy's lap.

Movie's really funny, interesting, made us laugh till the end. ML was a lil scared, there're some scenes scared her.

Movie's over by 10 pm. Ahh.. that's lovely nite! We enjoyed the cozy nite, it's only me, Daddy, ML and Putty who laid on the couch across us

Then, I took ML up to her bed. We prayed on the carpet facing her" purse lamp ", then put her back in her bed, reading her " Pinkalicious " turned to " Purplelicious " story book, it's about cupcakes.

Let's do it again, Daddy! We love it!

Monday, March 7, 2011

Be Thankful

How many of us be thankful for having a baby/kid/kids in our lives ? How many of us realize how hard to carry on the full term pregnancy, and have a very perfect baby in our hands?

How many of us enjoy the moments of being pregnant, passing day by day till the lil tiny creature comes out,see him/her crying for the 1st time ? How many of us think it's AMAZING ? How many of us being PROUD to be parents? How many of us keep THANKING God for the life we have?

After learning my dear friend's miscarriage, loosing her very young 4 months of baby in the womb, it touched me how to face life, how to be greatful of what we're having. We have something that others don't! We have something that others longing to have one. We're greatful to have something while others even don't have any, or even don't want any!

We have with us, but sometimes we forget to thank God for what we have.

Flash back almost 4 years ago, Feb 09, I learnt that I was pregnant. I took about 2 years to decide to have kids. Finally, it's time, and Ronnie said in Oct 08," Ok, I want a kid." Dec, I went to doctor and checked if I was pregnant. The doctor said," NO." I was disappointed. She asked me to come back around Jan-Feb.

I went back on Feb'09, I was nervous.Doctor said," Yes, you're PREGNANT." WOW! It was like a sweet melody on my ears. I WAS PREGNANT! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!

The pregnancy really worn me out. For the whole 6 months, I kept vommiting. I didn't enjoy any food. I even couldn't enjoy my own cooking. I couldn't at all! I remembered I crawled down the steps cos I couldn't stand with the changing system in my body.

I was totally in a very bad situation. Did I want to give up ? NO! Cos I knew we'd have a beautiful baby, a baby that we really wanted. It's lots of pain, tears,fears, nervous,ect. But, I was strengthened everytime those feelings came over me.

Till the belly's getting bigger and bigger, till I felt this lil creature started "kicking" me, playing in my belly, rolling around, showing the bump here and there, and made me surprised once in a while ( I was sleeping, but she awakened! )

I enjoyed everyday of the pregnancy, with mixed feeling. Yet, I continued working... HARD. Yes, working hard! We still had the bar at that time, I worked more than 16 hours daily. Went home around 3-4 even 5am on weekends. I mopped the floors, bartended, lifted up cases of beers,ect. I did that till the night before ML came out to the world!

I worked hard, I worked at crazy hours, I ignored my body for telling me needed some rest. I worked as if I wasn't pregnant.For me, the pregnancy wouldn't make me stop from doing anything. I even flew back to my country, visiting my beloved family, painting some rooms there, climbing the ladders, doing this and that. Even Papi was scared to death to see me doing those things. He said one day," Remember,you're pregnant! Don't do too much stuff. Be careful! " .. Ups.... I totally FORGOT!

Then, I realized that actually " there're lots of things could cause me loose the baby",  " there're lots of things I could've got injured, hurted ". I ignored all these signs.

Was I ignorant ? Yes, I guess I was. I thought it'll be fine. I could handle it. Thank God, yes, Thank God for HIM giving me the strength that I could survive till the day our lil one was born.

Some women are not lucky. Even they had taken care of themselves, still the baby didn't come out at the full term. Some women lost before 1st semester, some women lost closer to the due dates.  And, to see these tears drop from the eyes, the loose one, the left behind one, really touches me.

They are not given a chance to raise the baby, they're not given a chance to hold the baby, not a chance to be showing the love they have.

Too many questions " WHY ". I don't know why,I am still looking for the answer of WHY. Anybody knows WHY ? 

Instead of asking why,blaming something,down in deep sorrow, let's us pray for these women. And to appriciate what we have, we must be thankful for we're given a chance to have, we're trusted to take care of God's child.

Be thankful for what we have, ALWAYS. Remember..... " Hope Never Dies ". 

God says it's not the time yet, still He'll give the best at the right time. He always gives THE BEST to His child.

Never gives up the hope. It's there, and always be there!  

Always be thankful for what we have yet others don't. Do not forget that!


Thursday, March 3, 2011

Accident Happens

Early in the morning, got a bad opening day. Still, thank God, it was not stopping me from doing my activities.

I fell on Mom's driveway while holding ML out of the car. I think I was not ready enough to stand up,lost balance and almost fell 3 times. The 4th time, I lost it. Fell on my right knee,still held ML on my arms. Thank God she's OK.

I was trying to get some help, but none was around me. Once I opened Mom's gate, I rushed into her bedroom. I put ML in her bed, and turned on the light. ML said," Mommy fell! Mommy get hurts."

Geee.... my pant ripped off pretty bad!. Even my legging's ripped off,too.

Mom was surprised to see how bad it was. Yeah, my knee hurts so bad. It's throbbing. Got a band aid, went back to my car, looked for my cellphone. I called office and left a message, then called my supervisor. I told her I might have been late since I had an accident. * Thank God, I got at work 1 minute before 7am*

So glad that Mom has pants that fit on me. . Now, the problem was, I couldn't find my glasses. ML said from Mom's bedroom," Mommy's glasses here!" Ah.... thanks, sweety!

I'm at work now.Eventhough my knee still hurts, throbbing, but I'm glad I am OK, moreover ML's OK.

Poor pants, I've never worn it before. Today was the very 1st day I wore it,and it's gone. Ahh...that's fine, I can always buy new ones.