Wonderful " Family Time " ^___^

Oh how I love " FAMILY TIME " !

Last nite, I was cooking " Bubur Ayam " aka Chicken Porridge for dinner. ML was playing Dora Game, Daddy came home minutes later.

Daddy asked me what to do after done cooking. I said," Nothing.Eat some of it. Why?"

He said," Ok.. I will give you some time here.It's 7.30pm right now.Take your time. By 8.15pm, go down to the basement."

I wonder why and what he wanted to do. I was curious and asked," What you wanna do ?" He said," We'll have FAMILY TIME. We'll watch movie, Despicable Me."

Aha!!!!!!! I had borrowed it for almost a week, and hadn't had a chance to watch.Finally, Daddy had spare time last nite and decided to watch it together. Yuhuuu!!!!!!!

So, I was rushing, finishing my meal and cleaned up the kitchen. I asked ML to come down with us. She said, " No, thank you. ML play Dora. " Oh well... it'll be me and Daddy then

Anyway, Daddy turned on the dvd player. So glad the tv in  the basement is big.Got it from his friend, for free, home theather :D . The sound is good,too!

We started watching this movie. Daddy couldn't stop LAUGHING from the very 1st time movie's on till the end!

The movie is really funny! He couldn't stand, kept laughing and laughing and said," oh my.. it's hillarious!!! Oh no! Oh no!!! Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha." I laughed,cos he laughed out loud!

Then, ML called us. She needed help. I went upstairs and helped her play Dora Game. I went downstairs and continued watching. Finally, ML joint us. She was curious what we're doing in the basement. 

Once she saw the movie, she said," Ahhh. ML want to watch!" So, she laid on me, meanwhile I laid on Daddy's lap.

Movie's really funny, interesting, made us laugh till the end. ML was a lil scared, there're some scenes scared her.

Movie's over by 10 pm. Ahh.. that's lovely nite! We enjoyed the cozy nite, it's only me, Daddy, ML and Putty who laid on the couch across us

Then, I took ML up to her bed. We prayed on the carpet facing her" purse lamp ", then put her back in her bed, reading her " Pinkalicious " turned to " Purplelicious " story book, it's about cupcakes.

Let's do it again, Daddy! We love it!

Be Thankful

How many of us be thankful for having a baby/kid/kids in our lives ? How many of us realize how hard to carry on the full term pregnancy, and have a very perfect baby in our hands?

How many of us enjoy the moments of being pregnant, passing day by day till the lil tiny creature comes out,see him/her crying for the 1st time ? How many of us think it's AMAZING ? How many of us being PROUD to be parents? How many of us keep THANKING God for the life we have?

After learning my dear friend's miscarriage, loosing her very young 4 months of baby in the womb, it touched me how to face life, how to be greatful of what we're having. We have something that others don't! We have something that others longing to have one. We're greatful to have something while others even don't have any, or even don't want any!

We have with us, but sometimes we forget to thank God for what we have.

Flash back almost 4 years ago, Feb 09, I learnt that I was pregnant. I took about 2 years to decide to have kids. Finally, it's time, and Ronnie said in Oct 08," Ok, I want a kid." Dec, I went to doctor and checked if I was pregnant. The doctor said," NO." I was disappointed. She asked me to come back around Jan-Feb.

I went back on Feb'09, I was nervous.Doctor said," Yes, you're PREGNANT." WOW! It was like a sweet melody on my ears. I WAS PREGNANT! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH!

The pregnancy really worn me out. For the whole 6 months, I kept vommiting. I didn't enjoy any food. I even couldn't enjoy my own cooking. I couldn't at all! I remembered I crawled down the steps cos I couldn't stand with the changing system in my body.

I was totally in a very bad situation. Did I want to give up ? NO! Cos I knew we'd have a beautiful baby, a baby that we really wanted. It's lots of pain, tears,fears, nervous,ect. But, I was strengthened everytime those feelings came over me.

Till the belly's getting bigger and bigger, till I felt this lil creature started "kicking" me, playing in my belly, rolling around, showing the bump here and there, and made me surprised once in a while ( I was sleeping, but she awakened! )

I enjoyed everyday of the pregnancy, with mixed feeling. Yet, I continued working... HARD. Yes, working hard! We still had the bar at that time, I worked more than 16 hours daily. Went home around 3-4 even 5am on weekends. I mopped the floors, bartended, lifted up cases of beers,ect. I did that till the night before ML came out to the world!

I worked hard, I worked at crazy hours, I ignored my body for telling me needed some rest. I worked as if I wasn't pregnant.For me, the pregnancy wouldn't make me stop from doing anything. I even flew back to my country, visiting my beloved family, painting some rooms there, climbing the ladders, doing this and that. Even Papi was scared to death to see me doing those things. He said one day," Remember,you're pregnant! Don't do too much stuff. Be careful! " .. Ups.... I totally FORGOT!

Then, I realized that actually " there're lots of things could cause me loose the baby",  " there're lots of things I could've got injured, hurted ". I ignored all these signs.

Was I ignorant ? Yes, I guess I was. I thought it'll be fine. I could handle it. Thank God, yes, Thank God for HIM giving me the strength that I could survive till the day our lil one was born.

Some women are not lucky. Even they had taken care of themselves, still the baby didn't come out at the full term. Some women lost before 1st semester, some women lost closer to the due dates.  And, to see these tears drop from the eyes, the loose one, the left behind one, really touches me.

They are not given a chance to raise the baby, they're not given a chance to hold the baby, not a chance to be showing the love they have.

Too many questions " WHY ". I don't know why,I am still looking for the answer of WHY. Anybody knows WHY ? 

Instead of asking why,blaming something,down in deep sorrow, let's us pray for these women. And to appriciate what we have, we must be thankful for we're given a chance to have, we're trusted to take care of God's child.

Be thankful for what we have, ALWAYS. Remember..... " Hope Never Dies ". 

God says it's not the time yet, still He'll give the best at the right time. He always gives THE BEST to His child.

Never gives up the hope. It's there, and always be there!  

Always be thankful for what we have yet others don't. Do not forget that!

 

Accident Happens

Early in the morning, got a bad opening day. Still, thank God, it was not stopping me from doing my activities.

I fell on Mom's driveway while holding ML out of the car. I think I was not ready enough to stand up,lost balance and almost fell 3 times. The 4th time, I lost it. Fell on my right knee,still held ML on my arms. Thank God she's OK.

I was trying to get some help, but none was around me. Once I opened Mom's gate, I rushed into her bedroom. I put ML in her bed, and turned on the light. ML said," Mommy fell! Mommy get hurts."

Geee.... my pant ripped off pretty bad!. Even my legging's ripped off,too.

Mom was surprised to see how bad it was. Yeah, my knee hurts so bad. It's throbbing. Got a band aid, went back to my car, looked for my cellphone. I called office and left a message, then called my supervisor. I told her I might have been late since I had an accident. * Thank God, I got at work 1 minute before 7am*

So glad that Mom has pants that fit on me. . Now, the problem was, I couldn't find my glasses. ML said from Mom's bedroom," Mommy's glasses here!" Ah.... thanks, sweety!

I'm at work now.Eventhough my knee still hurts, throbbing, but I'm glad I am OK, moreover ML's OK.

Poor pants, I've never worn it before. Today was the very 1st day I wore it,and it's gone. Ahh...that's fine, I can always buy new ones.

 

 

O.. Be Careful Lil Mouth

Yeah! It's kinda funny to remember what happened in the past. I was caught with what I said!

Years ago, my bro ( only bro! ) brought home a guitar. He said he borrowed it from his friend, since they would have a big Performing Arts ( Pentas Seni ) at their school, Methodist School. So, he said he'd like to play  guitar. Hm.... that's all I said.

Anyway, I saw him practising everyday, and I was bugged. I told him," Ah, Joe.Stop playing the guitar. I don't like it." He ignored me.

Everytime I saw him playing, I was bugged. Something was bothering me! I knew I didn't like it,cos I couldn't play it!  I hid my disappointment by acting like that!

One day, I saw this guitar was on the couch in the living room. I saw it, and wonder why Joe hadn't played it today, or the next day.

The next day, I saw it again. I felt it mocked me by sitting there everytime I passed the living room.

All I knew, I grabbed the guitar, sat on the couch and played it randomly! I said," Ugh!!!! I don't like this!"

Then, I saw some papers on the table. I wonder what they were. They're songs and chords! I thought," Ahhh... let me try the chords."

I paid attention to the instructions, and I could play chord C....then chord G... I played again and again. After that, I said,' It's enough! I'm done!

I left it and did my other stuff. At nite, I saw my bro was playing it. I walked by him.

The next day, I saw this guitar again on the couch. Hm.....I looked around, nobody's there. I sat on the couch, and " practise " again.

This time, I was able to add more chords. I started enjoying it. . The next day, I printed some songs and the chords. I practised and practised.

My brother didn't know about it. Till, one night, when he's playing, I asked him to borrow the guitar. He said," Bah! I thought you HATE it."

I told him, ' Yeah yeah yeah. Just gimme the guitar, please."

He handed me the guitar, I started playing The Cranberries, " Animal Instinct ". He was surprised! He said," Geee.... when DID you learn to play guitar ?????"

I told him," Since I saw the guitar was " mocking" me, by looking at me all the time at the couch!" . He's speechless. Ha ha ha ha. He said," THENNNNNN.... BE CAREFUL WITH WHAT YOU SAY!!!!!! " . LOL.

I said," I know... I know... I know.. sorry."

So, me and him practised some songs. I learnt how to play accoustic. It's kinda neat. I like the sound of it.

I learnt guitar about 1-3 months. He said,' Goodness!!! You pick it up faster than I do." LOL.

Anyway, I was busy preparing my visa and my departure to States on that year, so I kinda forgot to practise again.

It's amazing to know that Ronnie plays music, esp. guitar. When I got here, he showed me some of his guitars. I said," cool! "

I started playing again with Ronnie.There's one room he set as his " studio ". Got a keyboard, then some sound system.  I played for awhile, since I was not good enough. I even forgot the keys on keyboard!

So, I stopped playing...for years.... ufhhhhh

Last month, there's a fellowship at our house. I saw this young girl, played guitar. I was like," ahh... I wish I could play! " . Wait a minute! I did play before!

So, I started picking up the guitar again last 2 weeks ago. I printed some easy chords, practising again.

Then, when we had a Shepperd Meeting at Eric n Vera's house, friends said that Kim, the girl couldn't play this month. They asked if I could play this time. Wahhh... I was like," Duh... I couldn't! I only play, but not good. Only play as to play for fun."

But,they said I could try. Ok then. Besides, I brought some songs, just meant to practise the new songs for them. Finally, I took the offer.

On Sun, after church, friends came to practise and see how I played. Duh.. hopefully... hopefully it would run well. It's not for me... no no no.. it's for God

Last nite, I practised new song. Oh  how I love this song, " Eagle's Wings" by Hillsong. I practised till 11pm. Ronnie came down holding a paint brush ( he's painting the guest room) and said," I am proud what you're doing " ( pointing the paint brush to me ), but baby, it's your bedtime."

Ay ya ya ya ya.. I told him," Let me play one more time, and I'll be going."

My.. I can't wait till this evening, grabbing the guitar and playing it

No, I'm not good.. I'm just practising. LOL

Again.. O... be careful lil mouth what you say!

Once I said " I didn't like it", now I say " I LIKEEEEEEEEEEEE it! "

I denied myself for " disliking it ", because I couldn't play it!

I conquered my fear by facing it,and I won!

Nothing is possible as long as we make it possible!

Where there's a way, there's a will.

AMIEN!

 

Broken Hearted

I was tingled this morning by a verse in the Bible, Isaiah 41:10

fear not, for I am with you;   be not dismayed, for I am your God;

I will strengthen you, I will help you,   I will uphold you with my righteous right hand

I kept asking myself why I kept going back to this verse.

When I was talking on the phone with my Mom, Yusi, a friend of mine called me to cellphone. She mentioned about " Christina ". I told her I'd call her back. So, when I was done with Mami, I called her.

She thought I was at Christina's house. I said no. She said that Christina had a miscarriage. Ahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! Christina lives not far from my house, like 5 minutes. I told Yusi I didn't know about it.

So, I called Christina. She was crying emotionally on the phone, told me what happened. She's supposed to have a USG to know the baby's genital. She said OB/GYN couldn't find the baby's heartbeat, so she was asked to come back again the next day. The day she came back, OB/GYN still couldn't find the baby's heartbeat. She's worried. She told the OB/GYN before, that when she's sleeping, she didn't feel anything. 

She went back to the OB/GYN to have another sonogram. The nurse said she couldn't find it. They found out the baby's dead. They said baby's already dead about 1 month ago.

When I heard that, I was broken. I never experienced it, but the sadness, the disappoinment feeling I could sense strongly on her crying.  She was supposed due to around Aug-Sept.

I told her I would come to visit after work. Later, she called me. She was sorry for the phone was cut before. I told her something was bugging me this morning. Now, I knew the verse was shown intentionally. It's for her! Encouragement for her!

I was sad, I cried on the phone with her. I saw a broken hearted there. But the verse in Jer 29:11 , speaks more.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.

May Christina and Davis are given strength to get through this loss. And the precious baby sleeps soundly in heaven.

Our prayers, thoughts and love are with them.